Saturday, June 23, 2012

     So... I have very happy news! I haven't been blogging hardly, well... that is because I have been feeling so badly. After my last pet scan... I was starting to wonder if I was on my way out, no joke. Thank God for our new sofa, otherwise I'm sure I'd have a stage 4 wound on my right hip with a wound vac attached! I have literally laid in "bed" for about 7 weeks now, with the exception of a couple times I felt ok enough to go try to participate in life- like the Troy Strawberry Festival, or a quick boat ride at Indian Lake. But what the pictures don't show- is me about to pass out getting out of the boat, or going into a sleeping coma for 2 days from walking a couple of blocks. I am serious, it's been bad. Every time I would shower I couldn't get to the toilet fast enough afterwords to sit down because I was short of breath, my heart rate would jump to 140-160, and I'd feel faint.  They have ruled out heart failure (from the chemo) so I was just thinking maybe this is getting close to closing time, lol. I was trying to adjust my attitude to my new way of life. Wellllll.... my happy news is that this whole time it has been because my freaking hemoglobin was 6.8!!! (normal is 12+) NO WONDER I couldn't breath or function and I was so pasty!!! My poor little ticker was working in overdrive to try to get me some oxygen! So this past week I got a blood transfusion and that night I was vacuuming our pool and watering my poor, dying flowers and new trees. I felt like going out dancing, had a smile ear to ear, and was so overjoyed! I felt alive again! (Before I couldn't hardly walk to the barn to kitchen to get a drink!) The following day was rough- I am assuming I overdid it. But I've been great since. I am so, so, so happy!!!! I don't have to fill that prescription I had gotten for a wheelchair! I can walk, run, play again!!! Okay, well maybe not run hahaha. And let me tell you, it is exhilarating! I never thought I'd feel that way about going to the grocery, but it is! And today was the best day ever... we took Wyatt to the Newport Aquarium for his 1st birthday and I was able to walk the whole thing for 1.5 hrs and go out to eat afterwards, no wheelchair. Thank you God that I was easily fixable!!! p.s I think this new chemo pill is working (I'm giggling) because I used to only be able to lie on my right side- and now I can do my left, back, and even my stomach! wooohoooo!!!  :)  That's all I have for now but I will put some pics up tomorrow of our trip today if I can get them from Jessi. I hope y'all are having as wonderful a week as I am.

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Hello everyone! I haven't written in awhile, haven't been feeling so hot. Quick medical update- I ended up in the hospital for about a week at the end of April, I think. I was having problems with tachycardia (fast heart beat) among other issues. So long story short... I didn't get anymore IV chemo. I've had to be off of chemo until this week to allow myself a chance to recover a bit. My Dr. was thinking I've just had more chemo than a body can take.I've had issues since, just up and down with how I'm feeling. But I started on really low dose chemo Monday to try to stop stuff from growing too fast. No more IV (strong) chemo for me, Dr.'s orders. Which I am totally agreeable with! Enough of that junk though. I am just rolling with each day as it comes and excited that Levi is out of school, so happy it is summertime!!!


In other news, Tyler recently got home from his mission trip to Panama. He had a very good experience there, except when he was sleeping and said that either a lizard or mouse crawled across his leg and he isn't quite sure which one it was! Ewwwww! No thank you! I have to say that I am so very proud of the beautiful man my son has become. He is such a loving soul and it makes my heart happy.


Jessica has started grad school- go momma go! I know she will do wonderful things in her life with furthering her education. She already does! I don't know how she's doing it all; renovating her new house, working, raising a baby, going to grad school, dealing with my illness, volunteering at the equestrian center for people with disabilities. Sometimes I just feel so overwhelmed with what good people God sent to me to raise. I'm so lucky they are mine!!!


I know it's not much, but it's an update and I'm tired. Will write again soon.


p.s. Levi is as tall as me!!!!!!!!!! He's totally changing into a man before my very eyes! I see it every day... again, makes my heart happy I am here to see it :)  Gosh, I love that kid!


p.p.s. yessss, that is 10 of us riding on the golf cart up at the lake... count em! hahahaha