Tuesday, September 27, 2011

So, I have written a couple of times but I cannot get this stupid blog to post. I will try again.... we just got back from full week in beeeeautiful NC! Omgosh, I've never seen so many seashells! It is sooo addicting, I just couldn't stop collecting them! I found some really cool ones and I can't wait to arrange them in this huge (and I mean huge) glass jar. I'll have to take a pic when I get done. I'm so sad though because the last day of our trip Lisa, Levi, and I took a ferry to Bear Island (Blackbeard's old hangout) and hunted for sand dollars and shells.... in a freaking hurricane! Well, I might be exaggerating a little. But my God it was thunder like right beside my ear and I about had a heart attack... lightening right over us- that I didn't see because of my huge 'ol umbrella (real smart, lol)... and terrential downpours! I felt like I was on survivor, except I wasn't surviving too well, hahaha. So anyhoo... on this BARREN island (that lady at our resort lied! There weren't huge shells everywhere and millions of sand dollars!) we finally found 6 sand dollars after almost 3 miles and Levi found this AMAZING starfish! It was beautiful... bright blue on one side, white on the other. That is when the storm really picked up so we turned around and realized the wind had been at our backs. hahaha. I wanted to cry...it felt like we were walking into a tornado and I was fully aware of just how far we had to go back. My feet were killing me cuz they are all messed up from my new chemo, my stupid umbrella, which was only really protecting my face from the sideways rain from pelting it, was turning inside out and I was about to throw the damn thing into the ocean! But noooo, I held on, against the wind. Not one of my wiser moments, like I was really going to stay dry at all! Poor Levi... he gave up on any attempt to shelter himself and lugged our shells wrapped up in a towel over his shoulder. He said that now he knows how Santa feels. hahaha, made me laugh. It felt as if we were hiking up a mountain due to the high winds. But I had carefully placed our beloved sand dollars in the right back pocket of my shorts to prevent any damage to our fragile treasures, and the starfish in the left one. Now here is why I am so sad... we finally made it back to the shelter house after what felt like 8 hours (was really about an hour and a half), arm and leg muscles twitching & aching so so bad, skin eaten alive by mosquitos and burning from the hard rain, drenched, out of breath, ready to fall face first into the sand.... and i saw a bench there... so i plopped down, just exhausted. And I heard it... CRUNCH! omg, sand dollars--- gone! Are you serious??? I just endured all of that and did what??? Again, felt like crying. lol. Then we proceed to walk another 1/2 mile to the other side of the island to (barely) catch the ferry back. As we are pulling away... shivering, cold to the bone, teeth chattering, wishing we were at the condo with our much wiser husbands... Levi says, "Mom, where's my starfish?" OK, this is the point I truly did have to hold back tears... left it at the shelter house!!! This was a day long event, our last day in NC, just wanted to find something so special for Levi to always have... went through so much to find them and now we've got NOTHING! Well, except our memories! hahahah, Lisa and I laughed all the way home. I wish I had just a smidge of that day on video!

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

I am soooooo happy right now!!! I just woke up to go to the bathroom and my face is CLEAR!!! COMPLETELY CLEAR! It's a miracle! Oh my gosh, thank you Jesus! I can touch my nose and it doesn't hurt... heeheeheehee! I am giggling it makes me so freaking happy! I can raise my eyebrows, wiggle my nose, smile... and nothing burns or hurts! And my scalp isn't tender & itchy either! Laura is here visiting and she just woke up too... she said it's because she healed me, lol. Ohhhhh wow. Earlier this week my nose was soooo swollen, Paul said I looked like an old alcoholic, ya know when their noses get so huge and red... of course he didn't say that till the swelling had gone down cuz he knew it'd make me cry, hahaha. It was pretty bad though... he was like, "babe, it was so big and shiny and tight- I could see my reflection in it and it hurt to look at it." I said, "You noticed that?" And he just started laughing. Wellll, I'm laughing now! OK, got to get back to sleep... I just had to write this because I am so happy :) I was terrified that my dermatomyositis was coming back but looks like it was just the new chemo pills, THANK GOD!!!!!!!